I won!

lol The Digi Chick has been holding a monthly contest with prizes, each month different prizes. For May it was $150 worth of gift certificates to certain designers stores at The Digi Chick. Guess who won??? ME!!!! Yay!!! I've been trying to curb my spending on supplies, especially since I haven't been inspired to scrap at all lately. I've started quite a few pages only to trash them the following day, wondering to myself what the hell was I thinking.

Sam & the kids stopped by last night. The kids had fun seeing each other. It was nice to sit and talk to a friend in person for a change. I haven't seen any of my friends sine we went down to NC to see Chris off in the beginning of April. Tom's friends stop by to leave their stuff in our garage. So it was nice to sit and hang out with Sam for a bit.

Today I feel like crap though, I don't know if I ate too much Chinese last night (her treat) or if I'm feeling the effects of being so anxious about our impending trip to MI. I found out yesterday that the last day of school isn't the 16th, it is the 13th, so I think I am going to pull Tommy out at 11 and get on the road. I don't think a couple of hours will make much of a difference on the last day of school. I want to get on the road before traffic gets crazy and get there before it's too late. So, 9 days I think. It feels like I have a ton of stuff to do. Hopefully this weekend the boys will help me get things taken care of so that there isn't much to do next week. I'll need luck with that one, Tommy will be good about it, as always, but Anthony & I will come to blows over it, as always. lol

Giving it up...the desktop

Tom and I have been pondering the idea of getting rid of our desktop for a few months now. He sees that hardly anyone ever touches it sees as we both have a laptop. I do use it, occasionally. When the kids want to check on their webkins, we set them up on there so they can all see the monitor. We also have our older desktop out in the garage, well the tower anyway, the monitor is in a box in the basement. I would love to find someone I could sell it to, but I feel bad asking money for things that aren't the latest technology anymore. I don't know if I could get $50 for the old tower, it's probably 5 years old now.

I am just torn. I see the idealness of it, no need for the big, bulky desk we have, one less thing for Alex to screw up, etc. But I see it as too that our router goes through the desktop (we could get a new one, I know), the printer is set up to the desktop, and I like knowing that it's there available to use if I want. All things that are easy to get around. I love our new desktop though! lol This is how I argue with myself. :) It's so nice & compact, being everything is built into the monitor and we have no tower now. Though Tom did promise me that once we move we could get an iMac, which is compact too.

Anyone know anyone who might be interested in a less that year old Sony Vaio? lol

Just another Monday

So today was a better day for me. After thinking more about Tom leaving I think that I was so distressed because this is a preview of the inevitable when we move to CA. I know that when we get out there it is highly likely that he will be deployed. I've been through it before, but I think we grew too content with our lives here.

I realized this morning that we will be headed to MI in about 12 days. I can't believe that it crept up so suddenly! As long as Tommy's last day of school doesn't have anything too fun or important going on, he said he would rather go to MI the weekend before. His last day of school is a Monday, so I figured that we might be able to leave after he gets out of school on Friday. Though I'm extremely anxious about the drive as it is, add to it driving through DC on a Friday afternoon and I'm a wreck. lol

I tried to stay away from the internet today. Took some time to order my Tracy Joy bag, I really wanted 2, but thought better of it. I also read the new Digi-Dare and think I may try my hand at it. I have a few things that I want to list on Amazon or some other book site. Maybe a few things to list on ebay as well, we'll see.

Weight: I have to do something about my weight. I no longer need to lose 10 pounds or so, but more like 20 now. I am so disgusted with myself I almost don't want to ever leave the house. I know that this is all my fault, the point I'm at now, but I don't want it to be that way anymore. So yesterday I did 3/4 of my pilates workout and today I did 100 crunches. I am trying to keep Alex awake as long as possible so that I can get him to bed earlier tonight. If I am successful, I am going to get on the elliptical. 30 minutes is my ultimate goal, but I'd be happy if I can do 15-20, my legs are kind-of hurting me today from the stretching I did yesterday.

Ok, enough rambling for today, I know this is just mindless babble for most of you ;) Unfortunately I have no new layouts or pictures to post today. I need to get my camera out more.

Boring Sunday

So I sat in my room most of the day. Don't get me wrong, as much as I wanted I didn't crawl back under the covers and go to sleep. I read a little, I was able to get through 3/4 of my pilates dvd before the kids started fighting, I did more laundry and folded what was finished. I even put the folded stuff away.

It's 10pm, all the kids are asleep. Though I can't say much for Alex, he woke up crying around 8:45, I changed him and refilled his cup and brought him upstairs. Poor guys one eye was all swollen, thankfully he went back to sleep. The older two are passed out as well. I think I'm going to call it a night now also.

{sadness}

DH left this morning around 1:15am. I don't know why but we were both very distressed about the whole thing. We've been through worse, we've done this before, so it's not like it's a new thing for us. It is just completely bizarre how upset we were over the whole situation. I know that I can manage by myself for 3 weeks, I've managed longer and under worse conditions. I wish I knew why I was feeling this way. I have yet to hear from him though since he left on his excursion across the country. I hope everyone made it on time and that he made it to work ok, it was really foggy when he left.

So as I am making my way around this morning I feel like I'm in a fog. Alex woke up at 9:30 and I thought he wanted to go back to sleep, but instead he wanted to get up and see what mischief he could cause with his brothers. I really want to crawl back under the blankets and just sleep. I am really worried about the drive to MI, money and so many other things I can't think straight. I think it's my mind's way of trying to not dwell on the fact that Tom isn't just at work today.

I finished a layout during the week, I also finished a 2pg on Anthony's birthday, but it doesn't look right to me, so I will probably work on it some more. I want to get out and take some pictures but I keep forgetting to bring my camera, though it doesn't help that it's hard to focus on taking pictures when the kids are being obnoxious. lol Maybe we'll get out for a walk or something and I'll be able to take it with us.

Well, til another day, I think I am going to find my soft fleece blanket (although it's pretty warm already) and curl up with a new book. I've been a reading machine lately. Twilight, then 19 Minutes and yesterday I finished The Choice. I really liked them all, my favorites being Twilight and The Choice. I have two other Nicholas Sparks books I haven't read that I found in my book box that somehow hadn't made it into the house since we moved in here.