{sadness}

DH left this morning around 1:15am. I don't know why but we were both very distressed about the whole thing. We've been through worse, we've done this before, so it's not like it's a new thing for us. It is just completely bizarre how upset we were over the whole situation. I know that I can manage by myself for 3 weeks, I've managed longer and under worse conditions. I wish I knew why I was feeling this way. I have yet to hear from him though since he left on his excursion across the country. I hope everyone made it on time and that he made it to work ok, it was really foggy when he left.

So as I am making my way around this morning I feel like I'm in a fog. Alex woke up at 9:30 and I thought he wanted to go back to sleep, but instead he wanted to get up and see what mischief he could cause with his brothers. I really want to crawl back under the blankets and just sleep. I am really worried about the drive to MI, money and so many other things I can't think straight. I think it's my mind's way of trying to not dwell on the fact that Tom isn't just at work today.

I finished a layout during the week, I also finished a 2pg on Anthony's birthday, but it doesn't look right to me, so I will probably work on it some more. I want to get out and take some pictures but I keep forgetting to bring my camera, though it doesn't help that it's hard to focus on taking pictures when the kids are being obnoxious. lol Maybe we'll get out for a walk or something and I'll be able to take it with us.

Well, til another day, I think I am going to find my soft fleece blanket (although it's pretty warm already) and curl up with a new book. I've been a reading machine lately. Twilight, then 19 Minutes and yesterday I finished The Choice. I really liked them all, my favorites being Twilight and The Choice. I have two other Nicholas Sparks books I haven't read that I found in my book box that somehow hadn't made it into the house since we moved in here.